Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow.
- Albert Einstein
Monday, April 27, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
We had a good time, really we did
Not that you would know it from my daughter's "photogenic" expressions...
Just more lovely photos to use as bribery when she is older!
Just more lovely photos to use as bribery when she is older!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Bright Light
My new little nephew entered the world this week and he is such a bright light in our life right now. He is so pure and beautiful and innocent. He holds all the hopes and wonders that only a sweet newborn can embody. I'm thrilled for my sister and her family, and thrilled that my children will get to foster a wonderful bond with their new cousin. Selfishly, I'm also thrilled for myself as his birth creates a much needed distraction.
I'm grateful for everyone's kind words of support and encouragement for my husband's health. We are headed to Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center tomorrow to learn if the cancer spread and what the treatment options are. This medical appointment can't come soon enough, yet at the same time I'm dreading it. I think it will be the longest drive to NYC that I've had in a long time. Visiting my nephew at the hospital today reminded me that hospitals can be a source of hope and joy. I'm going to try to hold onto that feeling tomorrow and use it to fill my heart and energy with lots of bright light.
Welcome Cullin Laine. May you be filled with love and laughter, and surrounded by life and light.
I'm grateful for everyone's kind words of support and encouragement for my husband's health. We are headed to Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center tomorrow to learn if the cancer spread and what the treatment options are. This medical appointment can't come soon enough, yet at the same time I'm dreading it. I think it will be the longest drive to NYC that I've had in a long time. Visiting my nephew at the hospital today reminded me that hospitals can be a source of hope and joy. I'm going to try to hold onto that feeling tomorrow and use it to fill my heart and energy with lots of bright light.
Welcome Cullin Laine. May you be filled with love and laughter, and surrounded by life and light.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you, as you are to them.
~Desmond Tutu
In all of the stress and worry that has entered our family recently, the love and affection that my children have for each other (well, most of the time anyway...after all they are siblings!) keeps my heart lifted and filled with joy, comfort, faith and most of all - hope.
~Desmond Tutu
In all of the stress and worry that has entered our family recently, the love and affection that my children have for each other (well, most of the time anyway...after all they are siblings!) keeps my heart lifted and filled with joy, comfort, faith and most of all - hope.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
*sigh*
September 25, 1989. That is the day I started dating my husband. September 1, 1996. That is the day I married my husband. March 24, 2009. That is a day I want to erase from our life.
We met so long ago and have spent more than half of our life together. I find that fact utterly amazing. We've been through so much together and love each other with all of our being. Ken is such an incredible man, father, husband, friend, and just a wonderful person. Which is something impressive considering the crap he's been faced with.
His dad died from cancer when Ken was only 17. Three short years later he lost his mother, also to cancer. Most people would crumble if they had to endure these events in their life. Many a man has been driven to drugs, alcohol, crime and worse when faced with such devastating circumstances. Not Ken. No, he instead focused his energies on his schooling and career and me. Instead of falling into a deep hole and struggling with demons, he choose to make his parents proud. He knew they would be watching over him and he wanted them to know he would survive, even thrive, and that he would be a successful and compassionate person. He wanted to fulfill whatever dreams they may have had for him.
And he has. He is a fantastic person. He is caring. He is loving. He puts me and our four children ahead of everything. He is so responsible and he is my whole world. I don't know what I would do without his support, companionship, love. I need him in my life. I want him in my life. He is my family.
We celebrate Sept. 25 and Sept. 1 as our anniversaries. Those dates are precious to me. The March 24 date? That date can bite me. That is the date that we found out Ken has cancer. Freakin' stinkin' testicular cancer. I HATE that this is happening to him. So many fears have seemed to erupt in an instant. The emotional turmoil, the uncertainty, the unknown, have swept over us and left us feeling scared and pissed and drained. Trying to remain positive is challenging. We know the statistics are in our favor. This type of cancer is curable. The success rate is 95%. The doctors said that if you are going to get cancer, this is the one to get. woo hoo.
So we are trying our best to be positive. We know Ken can beat this. I will fight this fight with him. I will support him and love him with all of my being, as he has done for me these last twenty years. I know he will survive, and thrive. I know he will make his parents proud. I'm proud of him.
We met so long ago and have spent more than half of our life together. I find that fact utterly amazing. We've been through so much together and love each other with all of our being. Ken is such an incredible man, father, husband, friend, and just a wonderful person. Which is something impressive considering the crap he's been faced with.
His dad died from cancer when Ken was only 17. Three short years later he lost his mother, also to cancer. Most people would crumble if they had to endure these events in their life. Many a man has been driven to drugs, alcohol, crime and worse when faced with such devastating circumstances. Not Ken. No, he instead focused his energies on his schooling and career and me. Instead of falling into a deep hole and struggling with demons, he choose to make his parents proud. He knew they would be watching over him and he wanted them to know he would survive, even thrive, and that he would be a successful and compassionate person. He wanted to fulfill whatever dreams they may have had for him.
And he has. He is a fantastic person. He is caring. He is loving. He puts me and our four children ahead of everything. He is so responsible and he is my whole world. I don't know what I would do without his support, companionship, love. I need him in my life. I want him in my life. He is my family.
We celebrate Sept. 25 and Sept. 1 as our anniversaries. Those dates are precious to me. The March 24 date? That date can bite me. That is the date that we found out Ken has cancer. Freakin' stinkin' testicular cancer. I HATE that this is happening to him. So many fears have seemed to erupt in an instant. The emotional turmoil, the uncertainty, the unknown, have swept over us and left us feeling scared and pissed and drained. Trying to remain positive is challenging. We know the statistics are in our favor. This type of cancer is curable. The success rate is 95%. The doctors said that if you are going to get cancer, this is the one to get. woo hoo.
So we are trying our best to be positive. We know Ken can beat this. I will fight this fight with him. I will support him and love him with all of my being, as he has done for me these last twenty years. I know he will survive, and thrive. I know he will make his parents proud. I'm proud of him.
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